Blue Tigers Eye

If you are anything like me, you were raised in the Christian religion, but never really felt like you were in the right place.  I was made to go to church every Sunday, told how I was born with original sin and that it was my life’s duty to fix myself so that I could go to heaven when I die.  It took a many years to find the spiritual path that I was comfortable on. I was around 16 when I decided, without a doubt, that I was an atheist.  I think I went that route because I didn’t’ know that there was another choice. I did however, love the moon and was always very drawn to it.  Every full moon I would sit under the moon and do a “forgiveness meditation.”  This consisted of forgiving all the people that made me angry over the past month, (I was 16 remember, there were a lot of people that needed mentioning!) This was a form of ritual, although I didn’t know it at the time.

I was 25, when I came home with my first personal computer and I starting looking up Witches for Halloween costume ideas, and there I found it; The Witches Voice!  I read and I read and I read and I read (for days) and then it hit me…I realized why I never fit into the Christian Religion, because I’m a Witch! OMG… What am I going to tell my mom?

Making a change in your spirituality is not as simple as one would think!  Not for you or the people that are in your life.  I can’t offer any solid facts that would make this change easy for you, as every person is different.  But I can tell you what worked for me…the first step is grasping the perception of both male and female deities and making that connection.

It was very easy for me to accept the goddess into my life, but I think that when I got rid of the idea about having a god when I was 16, I made it difficult to re-connect to that form of deity.  I purchased a talisman that reflected the god image; it consisted of the pentagram with the symbol of the horned god on the top of the pentagram.  I wore this talisman everyday for years and performed connection rituals that involved only the god-like aspect of deity.  It worked! But it did take some time.

Perform a good dedication ritual, honoring your new faith and saying good-bye to the old one.  Just like you would with anything that you’re ridding yourself of, whether it’s an old job, an old boyfriend/girlfriend, or an old house.  Performing a ritual makes the letting go, so much easier.  Like when you were a teen, and your boyfriend/girlfriend broke up with you…you take all the old pictures, notes and gifts and burn them.  (Maybe, that was just me!) Yet, another ritual that I was unaware that I was performing; a form of release.

Remember that all change takes time, try not to get frustrated and start questioning your new path.  Keep learning, studying and practicing and before you know it, your new path will become a way of life, not something that you have to think about first!

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